HCG Makes a Second Appearence and I Love UPS Guys

Okay so I have a few items I’d like to discuss with all of you in the blog world.  So I have a limited dating scheme in Erie…so, as I have mentioned before, I try really put myself out there for dating.  This includes phone calls, getting enough nerve to ask out guys…and unfortunately they usually don’t pan out well.  This is fine and all because I can at least say that I have put my best foot forward and gave it a try.  But, also with that I sometimes feel like colossal ass for what seems like cycle I put myself though.  So I admit I’m a little tender when potential dates don’t pan out.  What I have found that if I am left alone for a bit I get over it and then I’m back in the game…no biggie right.  WRONG…I am beginning to realize that I am stuck in this terrible cycle of seeing the people that I ask out or make efforts to ask out, around town and we always end up seeing each other.  It is uncanny how many times I’ve run into people that I’ve hit on in the past.  That is the case that occurred last night…

 

I posted awhile ago about HCG (I put the link below for you to read up on it).

 

http://sammy25.wordpress.com/2008/05/08/he-talked-about-his-testicles/

 

 Well last night I went out with a bunch of girls that I know and Lauren.  We went to a place where the martinis are cold and expensive, the music is good, and the gays are good looking. (It isn’t a gay bar though…but I think it must be a requisite for one to work there you must be gay…and really good looking).  I walk in and there are 6 of us at the bar being charming and having good conversation when I look over my right shoulder and see a really good looking guy, we kinda make eye contact (bad idea).  I see him lean over to one of his friends and whisper something.  I don’t give it much thought and begin my martini.  I glance over at him occasionally, nothing big when I suddenly realize that the guy is the HCG whom I had met for coffee one night, thought things were going well, then the next day he was in a relationship…..hhhhhhhhmmmmmmm….I am thinking the same thing folks. 

 

All I can think is I just want to remain in some type of anonymity because I had hit on him and obviously it didn’t work out and I suspect he was their with his boyfriend.  Is anonymity to much to ask…apparently yes it is.  It is one thing for me to make a fool out of myself but as God as my witness I refuse to be the topic of conversation between said hit on guy and his boyfriend.  What do I do…I down my martini and attempt to melt into the bar.  No, I didn’t go over and confront him.  To make matters worse I know the bartender and he always says my name pretty loudly, so it’s like I’m being announced over a PA system and other than HCG and his posse we are the only ones there, so it wasn’t like I could disappear somewhere.

 

God if you read blogs, listen to me…no more….I say no more of this seeing guys I’ve foolishly hit on at bars…I always look like desperate heehaw when this happens and I need a smidge of a break from it….thanks!

 

 

 

On a happier note…we have a new UPS guy delivering at work….and is he oh so good looking.  Short, with short black hair, built nicely, tan, with a thumb ring, and those little UPS shorts that just make life a little bit nicer.