Sammy Running a Half Marathon

So I have a small confession to make.  I’ve been keeping a bit of a secrete from blog friends, as well a bunch of my friends in Erie.  Along with the weddings the busy weekends and such I have also been training for a half marathon.

Yes, I’ve been training for the past month and a half and the race is on July 19^th.  I just registered today for it (I had to make sure I was going to get my “free” t-shirt).  It has been eating up a decent amount of time.  I run 4 days a week and cross train on two giving me one free day on Mondays (the only day I get to do my laundry).  Frankly, I’m exhausted.  I think that is one of the reasons I’ve been less then attentive to my blog recently.  It is also the reason I’ve been less then attentive to my friends as well.  It has taken up a bit of time and it is causing some degree of problems between Frank and me.  We’ve been dating just shy of 5 months and I haven’t been giving him as much attention as I guess I should be.  Granted I told him that I wasn’t ready for anything other than dating one another and that the status of boyfriends should be left alone because of my hectic summer.  Needless to say I only get to see him only once a week.  It seems as though my weeks have become much more regimented lately.

My junior year in college was much like it is this summer in terms of schedules.  During that junior year I took one of the heaviest course loads of my college career.  It also included over 300 hours of lab work in a 10 week period. It was intense and because of the added lab work I found myself never being able to have down time.  Every spare moment in the day I had I was either doing something in terms of apartment up keep or working on homework for other classes to make sure I didn’t fall behind.  It worked out well, but I remember by the time Thanksgiving rolled around I was ready for a long break and it became much harder to maintain such a strict schedule until now.  It’s like the moment after work I am jammed with things to finish.  It’s nice to be busy but I can’t believe it’s JULY already.  In the past, almost 2 months, I’ve had one weekend off, and I had to lie to a ton of people making them think I was out of town so I could just crash.  I’m not big on lying but it was totally needed this time.  Okay, maybe not lying but an act of omission. LOL

I’m just being whiney.  Sorry; it’s just been on my mind for a while and it’s nice to just type it down.  The Frank thing is freaking me out to.  He is a little, I don’t know how to say it, not intense; but encompassing!  He is very nice but he is always saying things like, “I like you.”  Which is great, all people dating should want this right…of course….but he says it all the time!  Constantly, and he is constantly touching me!  It sounds awful but it’s like I’m eating pizza he’s rubbing my back.  We are sitting on the couch and he’s laying on me, and so on.  It is totally out of the realm of cuddling.  It’s almost as if it’s an over stimulation of the senses.  The “I like you” thing also scares me a touch because I feel like it’s his euphemism for love.  I don’t know but the way he says it makes me feel that instead of saying love he says like because it placates me because I am totally not into the boyfriend thing and especially love thing.  I know I don’t love him and that isn’t a bad thing we’ve only known each other for 5 months….I would think it is far too early for L word.  I mean come on 5 months!?!!?

That’s one good thing about my hectic schedule is that I can only see Frank once a week.  That is all the time I have for him and it isn’t like I’m restricted in terms of seeing other friends.  But it has cooled things off a bit for us.  Which is good…I think?!  The other thing that I find a little worrisome is that, as I mentioned above, I am holding the whole boyfriend title at bay.  It is quite the commitment that I’m not totally ready for.  Well, I just recently found out that Frank has been telling people we are boyfriends!?!?!?!!!?!?!?!?!?!!? (note the abundant use of punctuation)  I mean can you have a boyfriend without knowing?  Apparently yes, yes you can, I don’t think he knows I know and I haven’t brought it up to him yet.  I don’t know how to as of yet.  But I don’t like it.  I think that is clear indication that I have to set some intense boundaries or end things with Frank.

You’ll have to excuse my little venting bit!  In better news I got back from Boston last weekend after visiting my Urban Family.  It was lovely to catch up with them and it makes me wish we lived closer together.  This weekend we have a ton of people staying with Lauren and I.  We have a wedding on the 4^th and a ton of people we know will be here.  I’m looking forward to catching up with them.  Now I just have to keep my drinking to a bare minimum considering all the running I’ve been doing!  But it is another fun, hectic, busy weekend. 

I hope you all are doing well!  Happy 4^th of July!!!!!!  I hope your weekend is filled  with fun and exciting picnics and making out!   Here is a little video for you to enjoy!

 

Murder on the Dance Floor- Sophie Ellis Bextor