Posted in blog, Brad, dancing, Danny, Dating, Erie, Erie PA, flirting, Frank, Gay, homosexual, Presque Isle Files, Sammy25, texting, tagged blog, Brad, dancing, Danny, Datng, Erie, Erie PA, flirting, Frank, Gay, homosexual, Presque Isle Files, Sammy25, texting on February 24, 2009|
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Last night was like something out of a movie. That is the only thing I can liken last night to.
Well, yesterday I didn’t think Brad would call so I made other plans…far be it from me to wait around for a boy to call…and then it bit me in the ass. Brad ended up calling. Which is good to some extent…after some reshuffling of my schedule we decided to meet for drinks at Ruby Tuesday’s, which moved to drinks at another smaller bar, which eventually led to seeing a drag show and dancing at a local gay bar. (There is more stuff that happened at the gay bar but I’ll revisit that saga when I finish with Brad). At this point conversation has been flowing very nicely between me and Brad but I get the distinct feeling we are not meant to be more than just friends. There is something about Brad that I like…he just struck me as being very human…I could tell that he wore his feelings on his sleeve (which it has it’s pros and cons), he always said what was on his mind (again that can be good and or bad), and I kinda liked that about him. But he was so anxious too. That was a hard thing to wrap my mind around. He constantly seemed worried about something, he was always moving around, he joked that he has ADD….I think he does. But that doesn’t mean he wasn’t nice…it just exhausted me watching him. The other thing that worried me about Brad is his drinking. I don’t normally worry or comment on the way people drink but I’ll tell you what watching Brad kind of blew my mind. Mind you Brad is a big guy he is 6’7” just to give you and idea of his height…he easily dwarfs me and I suspect it takes a few to get him drunk. But Brad had quite a few, a few to many to drive home on which is why I didn’t get to bed until 4 am today. It was while I was driving Brad to his car that he told me he wasn’t interested in me in a romantic sense…trust me I wasn’t heartbroken…but he did say he wanted to be friends, that I can deal with. I will also give him props considering he was man enough to tell me that he wasn’t interested in me. Much better than being led on which has happened in the past. From there things began to spiral out of my control. There was a stop at McDonalds and an hour and a half chat with Brad in my car…more so Brad talking and me sitting there….is this what dating is suppose to be like. A 6’7” man, drunk, eating McDonalds in my car, talking about his life with no possibility of heavy petting, who said he wasn’t interested in me. At the moment if dating is like this I am going to need something to numb the whole ordeal of it LOL. I offer him my couch but he declines and decided to drive home. I probably shouldn’t have let him go but frankly, there was no possibility of getting his keys off of him and I had to be up at 7 am. (On a side note he made it home okay he texted once home safe and sound.) I think it is safe to say that I can count Brad out of the possible pool of husbands, but I will add him to my friend list. I do appreciate him not trying to make a move on me it was very respectful of him…and all I can think is thank heavens we went on a “date,” if you could call it that, because trust me when you go on dates you learn A LOT about someone. Okay so now we have the Brad situation in the bag lets revisit some other things that happened last night.
First, when I like someone I usually will give them my phone number… per usual but I’ve found that a lot of the time I never get responses back which is fine. But occasionally there will be a young man that gives me his phone number and that is a nice change of pace. Well last night I had some guy, I’m pretty sure I met at a gay bar, text me while out with Brad. (Remember I said when it rains it pours regarding my dating…it only gets better.) I can’t seem to place the guy at all!!!! I don’t know what to do, I think I’m going to lie and tell him my phone died and that’s why I texted him today instead of last night and then ask how we know each other…it’s all just to weird. Then I started receiving texts from Frank. I called him last night regarding a date on Wednesday and his phone was off…he had a concert to attend, so I knew it would be off. We exchanged texts and he kept calling me stud which is pleasing. So we are going to see what happens with that. Then finally I ran into a real nice guy I had given my phone number to some weeks ago. He never called me back but I’ve seen him out a few times. Well it turns out Brad knows him so he comes over and we start chatting, (his name is Danny), Danny leans over and apologizes for never calling me…he tells me that he has a boyfriend and that he felt weird calling me and telling me over the phone. It was a nice gesture of him to do…then he tells me he and his boyfriend had just got engaged. So basically I hit on a fiancé. Okay so he’s off the market no biggie, he’s still really nice and I enjoy talking to him. As the night progresses Brad, Danny, and myself bum around the bar a bit enjoying each others company. Well at one point a good song comes on. I liked it, Danny obviously likes it the way he is shaking his hips (his dancing was what initially led to me giving Danny my number) so we end up on the dance floor. We are dancing having a good time, I keep reminding myself that he has a fiancé, but we are just innocently dancing. At one point he leans over and whispers in my ear that the night he danced with me (when I gave him my number) he was attracted to me but he had a boyfriend, which pleases me that he was attracted to me…the next thing I know his hands are on my ass. Do I pull away, no, because that would be the right thing to do and I want figure out how fast it would take for a rumor of me sleeping with an engaged guy to circulate in the gay community and eventually get back to his bf/fiancé. He pulls me close and presses my hips against his. He keeps grabbing my ass and eventually I pitch a tent promptly jabbing him in his thigh. He keeps making faces of contentment. Eventually, the ass groping tent pitching fest ends and I get ready to leave…and by leave I mean drive Brad back to his car. We exchange goodbyes and Danny plants a big kiss on my lips…a lingering one that hints at something more. A few minutes later, against my better judgment I text him thank you for the dances, he says he’s welcome and that he will text me tomorrow (which is now today) once his bf is gone. This is nothing, NOTHING but trouble. All I know is that while I am wildly attracted to Danny, I could never do anything with him and when we text today I plan on making that adequately clear….I’m a lot of things but a home wrecker is not one of them.
So that was my Monday night. I apologize for the mess of a post but I am exhausted and frankly anxious about everything today. Like I said when it rains it pours…I’m on boy overload…yet none of them seem to be boyfriend material.
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I hope this finds everyone well and resting after an eventful Thanksgiving holiday. I apologized, yet again, for life interfering with my blogging. I know you have all been foaming at the mouth waiting for my next post 😉
It has been a mess of two weeks. My boss was out of the office for a week and I made a terrible assumption that the few days prior to my tiny Thanksgiving vacation would be low key…I was dead wrong. Work turned out to be a mess of phone calls, projects, and other various tasks that had me wishing for my next cocktail. Along with this and the ever present threat of snow in Erie (which never came) my trip home to Pittsburgh had me frazzled by the time Wednesday rolled around.
I managed to finish work and head home. I could only stay one day with my parents considering the coming Saturday would be a wedding reception I had to attend for the couple that was married in Oklahoma. Thanksgiving was wonderful it was great being with my full family and extended family on my Mother’s side…unfortunately I had to miss my second Thanksgiving dinner with my Father’s Italian side of the family due to the reception…which, may I add, is punishable by Italian death!
I managed to get a visit in with my High School best friend, who’s Father got me drunk, then I fell off my first two steps of my porch…it was slick out (this was the day before Thanksgiving so no I wasn’t drinking and driving). I arrived late Friday evening in Erie and caught some quick hang out time with Steve at his place of employment. I still want to make out with him even though I know it will be a mistake. Saturday I was up early pressing shirts, grooming myself for the reception and wrapping gifts etc. Lauren picked me up and we were off to Ohio for the second reception. We stayed at a nice hotel and the reception was a fun, drunken mess. Lauren’s parents were there and all these great people from my Alma Mater. The next day we had brunch with the groom, bride, and their families then it was off to Erie again…this time with the Bride’s friend from OK. We hit it off so well that he decided to come to the reception then crash with us until tonight. He is a lot of fun but I can’t tell if he is gay or not. He has straight tendencies then he will call me “honey” or refer to Lauren as “sweetie.” Again I kinda want to make out with him but I think I’m not going to test those waters quite yet.
So here I am two weeks later and bushed. I thought after October life would settle down a bit and it hasn’t. It seems to have dragged on into December. All I know is that I’m going to be going steady, in terms of work and holiday preparation, until Dec. 24th…the day I get to drive home for Christmas. Even then I don’t stop because along with my holiday festivities two days after Christmas I fly to DC for New Years. I’m beside myself with everything.
On a political note…I’ve been more active in our LGBT community group. We had a folding party last week to get the Erie Gay Newsletter out…we participated in the postcard mailing join the impact has been talking about. What is really cool I don’t know if I’ve blogged about it yet is that Erie was featured in the Advocates blog on their website regarding our Prop 8 Protest!!!! It was uber exciting and validating knowing smaller areas were getting some of the attention considering we had a smaller turn out then in places like San Francisco, New York etc. We are planning other events and things to do in terms of gay activism. One of the cool things we have been discussing is having a gathering at one of our local theaters to go see Milk (which I am dying to see!)
What else what else what else.
My love life or lack there of is in its typical state of gay mess. I am still “seeing” John even if it’s for even games of gay wrestling. I managed to give my number to the guy that Lauren works with at her second job. I made another assumption thinking he was more my speed and that he would call me…and I wrong again. 2008 has not been the year of men for Sammy. It’s the typical fashion for dating recently with me…but it’s okay the spell should be broken…right!?!?!?!!? Then there’s Steve. Steve and I have been hanging out pretty regularly. I think it is safe to say that he is one of my first true gay friends that I can commiserate with. It’s nice to have someone like that. I mean Lauren is great but she’s not gay and it’s a little harder for straight people to understand the inner workings of us gay men. And I’m sure she is sick and tired of hearing me rant on and on about being gay. The problem with Steve is that I can’t rectify my feelings for him. It started out with me wanting him, then not wanting him, then being his friend then still wanting to make out with him. I look at him and I can see potential boyfriend material. He’s a little rough around the edges and yes he is brash with what he says but there is something of a decent moral fabric there….but then again I’m typing with my rose colored glasses on and that has the tendency to get me in trouble. He needs some fine tuning but he’s got some character. But I’m not sure if he is attracted to me. I am stuck in the hard place of wanting to see if something happens, not wanting to scare away my first gay friend…ugh it’s just a big old gray area.
Well that is about it for now. I hope you all are gay readers are continuing checking in with join the impact. We have day without gay coming up and so on. We have to keep ourselves active and continue working for our rights!
I hope you all are doing well and had a WONDERFUL Thanksgiving!!!!!! I hope it was filled with tons of food (especially turkey my favorite!!!)
Tons of pie
And perhaps some sweet man candy 😉
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Alright bitches I am back and I am alive after my wedding adventure. So let me give you the lowdown on the event. Traveling was fine, I had a half day of work then Lauren and I drove to Pittsburgh flew from there to Hotlanta then from Hotlanta to Oklahoma City. The Bride and Groom to be were waiting at the gates for us and it was a wonderful reunion. That was Tuesday evening. Wednesday and Thursday were spent visiting and doing minor wedding chores…and mellowing out the grooms Mother who was on high wedding alert. We bottled barbeque sauce (which was the favor at the reception as well as a donation to a local charity for each person that attended), we also picked up Oklahoma paraphernalia for the out of town guests (they had boxes waiting for them when they checked into their hotel rooms…the boxes had all sorts of Oklahoma goodies).
Let me tell you Oklahoma is flat, I was informed by the native Okies that there were in fact mountains, but I am having a hard time believing it. Also, apparently Oklahoma is the home of the largest hill in the world…LOL. P.S. I was waiting to see my first tornado, I know it wasn’t tornado season but a boy can hope can’t he?!
It was nice being there a few days early to just catch up with the bride and groom. I haven’t seen the bride since she graduated college and the groom I saw last month at Homecoming. We played cards and just hung out, it was nice considering Thursday started the wedding madness.
Thursday we ran some errands and groomsmen, bridesmaids, family and friends started arriving. That night we had a progressive dinner with several of the bride’s family friends. Some of the friends had some old oil money and were a little on the high falutten side. We ended up at this trashy 80’s bar where Lauren and I (drunk) brought the funk and fun. We lit the place up if I do say so myself. We showed Oklahoma what Erie socialites can do. Afterwards we ended the night at another really down home backwater bar doing Irish Car Bombs and these delicious ice cold drinks called Lunch Boxes…they were WONDERFUL!!!!! They tasted like orange tic-tacs and were very refreshing. After that we retired because Friday would be the rehearsal dinner and Saturday was the wedding.
Saturday was a mess between tux fittings, laser tag with the groom his family and all the groomsmen, showers, and getting to the church on time it was just a packed day. The rehearsal dinner was wonderful the food good and the booze flowed. Afterwards we were went back to the brides home and had a nice get together. The women stayed inside and the men went outside to smoke stogies and drink rusty nails (Lauren hung out with the guys LOL). Then it was time to head to the hotel with the other groomsmen. Uuuumm the hotel rocked. It was built in 1911 and it was just cool. Check out some of the pics below.
This would be the piano bar we sat in!
Saturday the groomsmen had it pretty easy. We just had to get to the church early. The tuxes were still problematic but we made do. The wedding was beautiful. The bride was in this lovely lacy gown that complimented her beautifully…it had a certain Spanish feel to it.
The bride’s father, who is training to be a deacon, gave a reflection that was beautiful. The only problem with the whole ceremony was that the priest kept referring to the bride and groom finding each other due to their love of god. I could help but feel a little put off by that assumption. I mean, for myself, organized religion is not my cup of tea. But I think it takes a little romance out of finding true love by believing it was because you believed in god. I don’t know I just felt it makes finding love less of an adventure and more a chance based on your devotion to a higher being. Of course, considering my currently lack of romance and love life (yes I will talk some about Craig) perhaps I am wrong and I should start praying now before I age and become the proverbial cat lady/man.
After the ceremony came pictures all over Oklahoma City….it was a ton of fun but by the time we showed up at the reception I was exhausted and hungry. For the reception we were atop the tallest building in Oklahoma City, the Chase Building in the Devon Room of the Petroleum Club…needless to say it was breath taking. Let me paint a picture for you there was a live band which played all the old jazz standards. The bride and groom are dancing their first dance together to “Fly Me to the Moon” and as they are dancing the shades to the 15 foot windows go up to reveal a magnificent sunset over the city….I was stunned. It was just amazing; it felt like an old movie with a ton of glitz and glamour! (Check out some of the pics below) We ate and danced the night away and once the reception ended I found myself with a bunch of friends in our hotels piano bar. There we sat listening to great piano music, swilling our drinks and just having a great time.
This is just to give you an idea of the view from the Chase Building!
That would be our hotel!
I can’t seem to find anymore pics of the view…once I load my pics I took I’ll put a few more up.
Now I know what you’re asking, “did Sammy get an action,” the answer is no but there were some very cute groomsmen. But I have to say the highlight, in terms of hotness, was one of the friends of the family of the groom that came to Oklahoma. I met him when we went to play laser tag. It was really funny because I’m came ready to play all grunged up with ratty jeans and tennis shoes while some of the guys wore loafers etc. This guy, his name is Matt, was wearing loafers of some sort and skinny black jeans and didn’t look like the kind of guy who played laser tag. We exchanged pleasantries and conversation and after laser tag I didn’t see him until I was in an elevator going up to my room from brunch the next day. Again we chatted and I didn’t think anything of it…it wasn’t until we were sitting in the piano bar that I noticed how cute he was. It was an unconventional cute. He was built or had huge muscles…in fact he was tall and skinny, he had shortish brown hair, hazel eyes, a real nice smile, some stubble, and a kinda square chin…and he was wearing a bowtie. Not usually what I look for in a guy but I have to admit I was smitten. So we are sitting in the piano bar and I am there with a bunch of people I know who are friends of the bride and groom from college and Matt is just sitting there not talking to anyone. So I motion for him to come over and chat. There no actual chairs to sit in but more like over sized ottomans that we lounged on. So he comes over and I was standing up to move when he did something that was peculiar. My back was kinda turned to him and he takes his fingers and kinda presses them into my sides. It was, I don’t want to say weird, but not something I expected from him since we had met only a few days before. It was a personal kind of touch, at least for me. It wasn’t one of those fingers pressed into your sides to illicit a laughing fit or pain, it was just a quick squeeze with his first two fingers…maybe he was way of saying get the hell out of my way but wouldn’t that be a weird way to say it…anyway…it’s not a place many people just touch me there unless I know them. It’s kind of like the small of woman’s back. It made my head spin a little, and I ended up a little light headed, that a guy would get that close and personal with me especially considering we were just acquaintances. I have to admit it I liked it. So we sit and end up having a spectacular conversation. We talked about college, and writing, typewriters, period movies etc. It was everything I wanted in a conversation with a man that I could see myself dating. The conversation flowed easily, he was charming and I was swooning. I really think that if he had asked me to go back to his room I would have readily left the party. He is a Senior in college studying 19th century (or 18th century) French Lit and something else…he wants to be a college professor…I was on an intellectual high when he mentioned the kicker…he had girlfriend….son of a bitch. Just my luck…*Sammy shakes his head* So in my unrelenting politeness we chat about her…she is currently out of the country, I think in Russia or Germany…I can’t quite remember…or is it I didn’t care…oh well. She’s been gone for 6 months and all I could think was 6 months and in a different country…it would be okay for him to let off a little bit of steam, with me. No, no, no, I couldn’t be a home wrecker…but that doesn’t mean I didn’t want to be. As the night progressed we ended but being shuffled away from one another do to the flow of people. As the night closed I did manage to slip him my email address. What I’m allowed to have email correspondences with cute guys. One of the nice things though is that in November we have another reception for the bride and groom in the grooms home town that we are all invited too; I’ve got my fingers crossed that he will be there….please please please.
Okay so this is staring to become an increasingly longer post than I had intended. I know it can be a pain reading long posts…The trip back to Erie was wonderful and here I am today. I don’t want to over burden you guys with longs post….oh shoot I forgot about the other hot groomsman that I have a slight man crush on…okay I am going to post about that later this week. Now thinking about it I have a ton of things to post about….Joe this other groomsman, Craig, and I think I might even put up a flavors of the week post. Well I’m signing off for now but don’t fret I’ll be back.
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So here is my last post for the week. I got a proper send off from Craig last night….I sacrificed my clean sheets for the send off…a small price to pay for a man on man wrestling match. It was funny because I was home last night and Lucy stopped over to pick up some food that would spoil in me and Lauren’s fridge over the week when Craig called and asked if he could come over. Because we are just fooling around with each other and our relationship prospects are zilch I try to keep our lives apart from each other. So I bolt out of my room and motion wildly for Lucy to exit the apt. I know crass of me but after 25 years of no action I’m going to get as much as I can. It was like something out of a movie. Queue a hasty Lucy exit stage back door…seconds later Craig is knocking at my door. We started with a massage, then a naked massage, then well you know! I am beginning to think that I might like a little rough play in the bedroom, Craig slapped my ass and I hate to admit it….I liked it. I can’t decide that it’s because it’s rough or because it was just different….LOL. After we finished Craig left and I had to shower and then I passed out.
So I am now just biding my time waiting to hit the road and get out of Erie for the week! In honor of the vacation please see the clip below….skip to 3:00 minutes for the best known part. “O-K-L-A-H-O-M-A OKLLLAAAHHHOOOOMMMMAAA YEAH”
How gay of me.
Here are a few video’s to keep my readers entertained…ahem the first one is for Aaron over at Refracted. Check him out on my blogroll. I hate to leave him in a dry spell (enjoy)!!! (In fact well I’m away give my blogroll some love…they are great blogs) The second one is for sheer gratuitous fun!!!!
See you guys in a week…have some dirty fun while I’m away!!!!!
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I know all of you that read my blog are feeling neglected and miss my gay musings. I apologize! My event for work is done but things are still flying by. I am impressed with how booked my October has been. So here are a few quick updates.
Last weekend was low key lots of laundry and wedding gift shopping. I have an uber big wedding I’m attending in Oklahoma the second to last week this month. Both myself and Lauren are going to be in the wedding. Unfortunately, I will be unable to blog that weekL. I also have two back to back weddings this weekend. The nice thing is that I am just a guest. Whew just dancing, eating, and drinking.
On the dating front….things are still a big old gay muddled mess. I met Craig out for drinks on Monday…it resulted in LOTS of fooling around in his car. It was welcomed! I tried to let Craig know that I wasn’t really looking for anything official; I’m just looking for STF aka sexy time friends. That may be mean but its true. I just hope he understands. We have emailed back and forth and talked on the phone a couple of times. I have offered myself up to have some fun times but he doesn’t seem to respond to my advances. I can’t figure out if he is just worried about it, or the age difference is too much (I am five years younger than his last boyfriend), or if he is looking for something more in terms of a relationship (which I’m not in the market for as of yet). He certainly seemed interested while his hands were down my pants. But then again, I am advocating a no strings attached fuck buddy kind of thing (excuse the swear, but I have no idea what else to call it other than “friends who occasionally see each other naked and do gay things to each other”) LOL. I’m sure this comes with the territory. It will be nice to have a weekend free where I don’t have to think about it…although I do hope to get a salacious text from him or something.
With that in mind I consider myself still on the market. Lauren just discussed with me a coworker that she has who she believes is gay and she seems to think we would be a good fit. I have stopped by at her work and she’s pointed him out to me. So last night I made an emergency stop at her place of employment with Lucy in the hopes of introducing myself to him. IT WORKED!!!! After some minor shopping, you wouldn’t believe what you home with from a store when you specifically go there to flirt with a guy, Lucy and I stepped into line. As we are standing there I ask him about his other job and he looks at me confused and I casually mention that Lauren who works with him has mentioned him a couple of times and that it was nice to put a face and a name together. I introduce myself and Lucy to him he shakes my hand. Nice firm grip…he is quiet spoken, taller than me, short almost buzzed reddish blond/brown hair, he has a beard…there is a certain dreamy quality about him. Something happened to work out in my favor, I couldn’t find an item in the store so someone had to go and get it for me…they left me at the checkout allowing me some quality time to flirt SCORE. Lucy and I get into an economic discussion while he checked someone out as I waited for my item. Afterward he finished the check out he ended up commenting on our conversation that we were having between us meaning he was listening!!! So my item comes and I check out, just before I leave I lean over and say to him “it was nice to meet you” and I think I said I hope to see him again. I think I’m not sure but besides that he responded with something like “I’ll see you again” or something like that. So it was a good gay flirting adventure. We’ll see what happens.
So that’s the mess known as my love life at the moment.
Also, in the political rant realm I would like to say
VOTE NO TO PROPOSITION 8!!
I’m over these people trying to stop gay marriage. If you vote for it you are simply voting against the “equal protection clause of the California Constitution.” Basically what people are saying is that every one is due equal protection except when it involves two men or women who love each other and want to be married. People are fucking hypocrites (and I’m not sorry about that swear).
For those of you who do not know what Proposition 8 is let me explain. When two men want to marry each other, in California, previously they would run into a little problem called Prop 22. Prop 22 defined, in California, marriage as being between a man and a woman. Just as a side note, at one point in time in California their marriage language looked like this “…defined marriage as: “a personal relation arising out of a civil context, to which consent of the parties making that contract is necessary.”” Sounds pretty gay friendly doesn’t it? Well eventually those people who can’t handle to men loving one another (and women loving women) managed to get Prop 22 passed thus gay marriage was done for. That was until May of 2008 when the California Supreme Court declared that Prop 22 violated the California Constitution. To the happy gay couples of CA this meant that they could marry, and marry they have. Now in a desperate legal turn individuals have produced Proposition 8. This is basically the same language as Prop 22 only if it wins in the voting booths in November, Proposition 8 will change the language of the California Constitution. This means the equal protection, guaranteed by the California Constitution, guarding will be done away with.
Literally the words protecting the right for men to men and women to marry women will be erased from the law. A RIGHT THAT WE DESEVER WILL BE TAKEN AWAY FROM US. I DON’T KNOW HOW CLEARLY I CAN STATE THIS. LET ME TRY AGAIN….LEGALLY PEOPLE WILL TAKE AWAY A RIGHT THAT WE WANT, DESERVE, AND CURRENTLY HAVE IN CALIFORNIA.
Now let me say this if you are gay and living in California and not registered to vote then shame on you. This is important for the gay community. I don’t care if you don’t believe in marriage or don’t want to get married. There are a significant amount of others that do want to get married and because you didn’t register to vote you are basically apathetic. Rights that we want are being taken away from us and you can’t even go register to vote is offensive. Those hypocrites that want to take away our rights depend on people like you with your apathy to help rewrite state Constitutions to their liking. It’s sickening. Also, if you are registered to vote and vote for Proposition 8 I think all your rights should be taken away from you…do you like talk of taking away your rights. I didn’t think so.
Finally, I would like to point some things out about the VP debates from last week. First, I love LOVE that Palin can tolerate me, lucky me (ahem dry sarcasm). Secondly, go figure they would spend only two questions on the whole gay marriage issue, once again we gays are second fiddle to the economy and foreign policies. Finally, I am a liberal Democrat and I would vote for Obama except Biden exemplified exactly the reason why I find it hard to vote for them. Biden stood in the national spot light and said he would protect gay rights (notice he said rights but never said marriage) but when asked if he believed in gay marriage he said personally no, the same with Obama. Now I know it is nice to finally have an Administration that will to some extent fight for gay rights, but publically Biden said he didn’t believe in gay marriage. I have to be passionate about my gay rights because there are many people who will not back them. How can I vote for someone that only goes halfway? He will protect gay rights but he doesn’t believe in gay marriage. Isn’t marriage a right I should have? It’s like me saying something like, women can vote but I personally don’t think they should vote or be in the political world.
I’ve voiced this to several of my friends who are upset over the fact that this issue is keeping me from voting for Obama (and may I say I would never vote for McCain). I’ve been told it’s the best I have right now. Well, why do I have to settle, am I not allowed to want more from my President and Vice President? It’s like being paid lip service. If Obama or Biden don’t believe in gay marriage personally how can I expect them to fight for it on a nation wide level if need be? It’s not an issue that can just be swept under the rug. How can I be sure that they would be passionate advocates as others are about gay rights and marriage? I want a politician who believes in what they say on a political and personal level and perhaps that’s more than I can ask from someone but I truly believe it is something that should be asked of our leaders.
Well that’s about it for now…I know it’s long but I had a lot to say. Have a great weekend. Let me know your thoughts about Prop 8 and the VP debate.
Here’s hoping all of you get lucky this weekend!!!!!!!
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Alright let me pick up where I have left off. As I mentioned I was torn between two guys Steve the meanie guy that flirts with me and the older sexual harassment guy…we’ll call him Craig. I also left off with my Alma Mater’s Homecoming looming. Homecoming was a spectacular blast. We had tons of people stay with me and Lauren at our place lots of booze, lots of fun etc. Friday night I had a slight development with Steve. We were both drunk at my Alma Mater’s favorite bar hangout and having a broken conversation. He did not go to my college but he came with several friends to hang out will all us alums. We end up leaving, he got a ride home with friends, me in a taxi with a few other friends and we start texting. I managed to get back into my bedroom and crash on my floor when I get a text from Steve “I want you in my mouth”….abuhhhhhhhh. I was flattered, excited, and somewhat confused by this exclamation. We had flirted but in the back of my mind I had not really thought anything would have come of Steve. I’m drunk and I’m pretty sure I send a text back that wasn’t sexual in nature but ponderus…my cell phone blinks with a response from Steve, “ I want to suck you off”…could my 11 months of strike outs with the boys finally have worn off? Have I just scored a homerun?…my cell phone blinks again. It’s Steve, “j/k”….what in the world I wonder, then another text “just kidding.” At this point, between the massive amount of booze circulating in my system and these weird text messages, I’m totally confused. We text for a few more minutes when he tells me he is texting his EX-BOYFRIEND…I pass out downtrodden.
The next day I receive a text from him apologizing for the perverted texts…I haven’t texted him in three days. Needless to say, the universe screwed me over again, not surprisingly. I’m sad but not surprised. For the moment Steve is out of the picture. I don’t time or patience to worry about a guy who is hung up on his ex when I took the time to flirt and make myself available to him. Available for dating and such…what kind of available are you thinking of?????
The rest of the weekend goes of without a stitch. It isn’t until Monday that things get interesting. So I am at work and Craig and I have been emailing each other. Mostly about the event I’m hosting but there are flirty nuances in the emails. So I give him my personal email. In one email I ask him what he is doing. He responds going to a movie, and asks if I like Woody Allen films (queue the Juno Quote “Woody Allen! I love Woody Allen.” That’s would be Juno’s friend Leah who is flirting with an older teacher…the situation is reminiscent to my own at the moment). I tell him I don’t mind them and that my evening was going to consist of going to a lecture about Civil Rights, MLK, and the political race with Obama. He then asks me to join him at the movies….hello Vicky Christina Barcelona good bye Civil Rights lecture. (I couldn’t help myself…you would do the same) So we meet at the theater. He had a couple of free passes so we go in and it is me and him and these two older people. Drat, I totally would have made out with him in the theater. The movie was awesome and we then go out for drinks…I’m thinking this is kinda like a date but kinda not. After two hours of drinking and talking and A LOT of touching, he asks if I would like a tour of his house…meager come on but I am totally down with it. We get back to his house and I do get a tour and then the real fun began.
I know I know you probably want all the fun and gay details…I’ll give you just a few. It was fun, after 11 months I know I still got it, it was fun, I still have a few scraps of dignity still intact, it was fun, no we didn’t go all the way, it was still fun, and I might be meeting up with him on Sunday….did I mention it was fun!
After our fun all I could think is of that moment in Under the Tuscan Sun where Diane Lane has sex for the first time after her divorce and she’s bouncing all over her room chanting “I still got it… (grabs chest)…I still got it…(laying on her back kicking her legs like an excited child…I…Still…Got….It.” I had the same type of reaction, it just wasn’t in my bedroom therefore it was a little reserved. Note the picture below
So I don’t know where this is going. I am not putting to much thought into it. He is older than me; perhaps we are friends that just like to fool around…I don’t know and I’m not going to try and label quite yet…I’m sure that won’t last long though…that’s my neurosis talking.
P.S. He gave me his cold……
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