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Hello everyone! I thought I would catch up with you very quickly. It seems since last Wednesday, when we had our gay rally, that I’ve been going full tilt and haven’t had the ability to get my feet back under me. We planned on Wednesday for the rally. It was cool to connect with the older gay community and they made me, Lauren, Lucy, and Steve (yes Steve I’ve kinda had a thing for) feel very welcome.
I ended up scribing for our group. There were two; I guess you would say leaders, for us, one gay guy and one straight pastor. We discussed a variety of plans to show our solidarity. What we decided on was solidarity bands for our arms, red, white, and blue (because we are all American citizens) speakers, including myself and Lauren (which made me nervous because I’m not completely out) and then there was a symbolic wedding ceremony wedding all us gays and our supporters. Our protest was set for this past Saturday on the Erie County Court House steps at 1:30pm.
The meeting was great but there was one problem. The straight pastor kept trying to keep things civil. It was the whole “you can’t fight hate with hate” idea. Which is a wonderful idea but I was hot under the collar. I wanted some loud protests. I wanted us to be expressive; I wanted us to use a mega-phone etc. But this pastor kept it civil, which is probably better but to be quite frank I want people to be scared of us. I want people to be scared of us not because we are gay but because we mean business. I don’t force my sexuality on anyone and when people feel the need to force their own moral belief on what a marriage is on me I want them to know that I don’t like it. I want people to take stock in what I have to say, I want to be heard and I want them to listen and answer me. But that is just me and this being my first rally I didn’t think it would have been to great of me to high jack the rally and go on a religious crusade looking for the mormons. I kid…and not that their would be a ton of mormons in Erie…I digress.
Also this weekend we celebrated a late birthday bar crawl for me but it was Lauren’s birthday as well. So we had friends staying at our place from Friday until Sunday…then on Sunday Lauren’s parents and siblings came down to visit for the afternoon. Needless to day I was constantly going this weekend. In fact I ended up taking a mental health day yesterday. Not only did I sleep in, I cleaned our kitchen and bathroom, did the dishes, baked a cake for Lauren’s birthday (I wanted to do laundry but our washer and dryer was out of order), and I wrapped gifts. It was very busy. Then I had two business meetings this morning.
The Saturday rally was awesome. We got an early lunch and talked about gay stuff then headed over to the court house. We were there with our signs and umbrellas (it rained), we had our solidarity ribbons on etc. There were a couple of speakers one of them was a lesbian I went to college with that I didn’t know was a lesbian…and I saw another girl who was a partner with me in a class that turn out was a lesbian too. It was like we all came out to each other coming to the rally. It was a weird but awesome moment! Both Lauren and I spoke on the steps of the courthouse. It was scary but empowering. We briefly talked about how straight people need to be our voices to and help promote gay marriage and I talked about how I was a gay man and how it was unbelievable that people still try to take our rights away from us in 2008 etc. We had between 80 to 150 people it was hard to estimate. We ended up on a variety of news outlets. It was really cool and empowering. I felt like a part of a community for the first time. There were no real protestors protesting us. We did have a variety of people drive past and beep for us from their cars which was awesome. Afterwards we went to a coffee house with others from the community and other supporters. It was cool getting to know others. Plus I’ve decided to try and get a little more into some community activism. So we will see how it goes. Overall it has been going going going. I want to say that I’m ready for Thanksgiving break but it is going to be just as busy at break as it is now. I have work stuff on Friday, a dental appointment on Monday, then home for Thanksgiving back to Erie the next day, then over to Ohio for another wedding reception for the couple from Oklahoma then we have a friend staying with us until the first Tuesday of Dec and lets not forget the whole Christmas shopping deal that is coming up. whew… So that’s about it in a nut shell.
In terms of the dating world; Craig and I are still seeing each other intermittently for gay wrestling matches. I’m still making attempts to take Lauren’s co-worker on a date but I can never seem to ask him or catch him when he is at work….Steve and I are now friends. I still want to make out with him but not much else…or at least I keep telling myself that. It’s nice to have a gay friend though. We’ve been hanging out much more lately. It is weird cause I feel like I like him, but I wonder if it’s just me liking having a gay friend and then some of the things he says about past ex’s makes me anxious. So I don’t know what is going on.
On a final note…winter has finally come to Erie. We got something like 2 feet from Sunday into Monday…the Farmer’s Almanac says it going to be bad this winter…did I ever mention I hate the Farmer’s Almanac.
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So here is my last post for the week. I got a proper send off from Craig last night….I sacrificed my clean sheets for the send off…a small price to pay for a man on man wrestling match. It was funny because I was home last night and Lucy stopped over to pick up some food that would spoil in me and Lauren’s fridge over the week when Craig called and asked if he could come over. Because we are just fooling around with each other and our relationship prospects are zilch I try to keep our lives apart from each other. So I bolt out of my room and motion wildly for Lucy to exit the apt. I know crass of me but after 25 years of no action I’m going to get as much as I can. It was like something out of a movie. Queue a hasty Lucy exit stage back door…seconds later Craig is knocking at my door. We started with a massage, then a naked massage, then well you know! I am beginning to think that I might like a little rough play in the bedroom, Craig slapped my ass and I hate to admit it….I liked it. I can’t decide that it’s because it’s rough or because it was just different….LOL. After we finished Craig left and I had to shower and then I passed out.
So I am now just biding my time waiting to hit the road and get out of Erie for the week! In honor of the vacation please see the clip below….skip to 3:00 minutes for the best known part. “O-K-L-A-H-O-M-A OKLLLAAAHHHOOOOMMMMAAA YEAH”
How gay of me.
Here are a few video’s to keep my readers entertained…ahem the first one is for Aaron over at Refracted. Check him out on my blogroll. I hate to leave him in a dry spell (enjoy)!!! (In fact well I’m away give my blogroll some love…they are great blogs) The second one is for sheer gratuitous fun!!!!
See you guys in a week…have some dirty fun while I’m away!!!!!
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Okay so it has been a week since my last two blogs. I just wanted to do a quick update as of my adventures lately.
It has just been one of those weeks with back to back work events every night, work itself, and getting ready for this wedding in Oklahoma. I am running around like a theoretical chicken with his theoretical head cut off.
I leave for Oklahoma on Tuesday and that means I will not be able to post for over a week. I might die. Both Lauren and I are in the wedding so I’m not going to have much time to sit down and write about my experiences until I get back. But that is okay you will definitely get all the good details. Word on the street is that the bride to be has a gay cousin…what I’m just saying….like you’ve never thought about it. LOL
Also in terms of gay dating and relations Craig and I have been seeing each other pretty regularly this past week. We have made it clear to each other that we are not looking for a relationship (which is very good). I know I’ve bemoaned in my blog about not being in a relationship and all the good that comes with it and being lonely….well I have man needs that I need to attend to. You know that song, “Lets get physical, physical…I wanna get physical”…well I’m getting physical then I’ll attend to long term relationships. I am hoping for a booty call later this evening from Craig. I deserve it I’m almost completely packed the apartment is clean and I’m basically ready for Oklahoma. Some man on man gay stuff would be a nice reward for being so prepared. But we can’t do any gay wrestling on my bed I just cleaned my sheets and frankly I don’t want man stained sheets to come home to and Lauren will be home and I kinda like to be loud (don’t ask). I know that you have all thought about this so whatevs!
This past weekend was spent doing routine stuff to get ready for this trip. Hair trim up, cleaning the kitchen and bathroom, sweeping the floors, laundry, packing etc. I’m just ready to get over to Oklahoma and have me a good time. Well that’s about it for now. I’ll try and do a special fun post tomorrow before I leave. If I don’t here is something for you to enjoy…..I need me some skrimps!!!!
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I know all of you that read my blog are feeling neglected and miss my gay musings. I apologize! My event for work is done but things are still flying by. I am impressed with how booked my October has been. So here are a few quick updates.
Last weekend was low key lots of laundry and wedding gift shopping. I have an uber big wedding I’m attending in Oklahoma the second to last week this month. Both myself and Lauren are going to be in the wedding. Unfortunately, I will be unable to blog that weekL. I also have two back to back weddings this weekend. The nice thing is that I am just a guest. Whew just dancing, eating, and drinking.
On the dating front….things are still a big old gay muddled mess. I met Craig out for drinks on Monday…it resulted in LOTS of fooling around in his car. It was welcomed! I tried to let Craig know that I wasn’t really looking for anything official; I’m just looking for STF aka sexy time friends. That may be mean but its true. I just hope he understands. We have emailed back and forth and talked on the phone a couple of times. I have offered myself up to have some fun times but he doesn’t seem to respond to my advances. I can’t figure out if he is just worried about it, or the age difference is too much (I am five years younger than his last boyfriend), or if he is looking for something more in terms of a relationship (which I’m not in the market for as of yet). He certainly seemed interested while his hands were down my pants. But then again, I am advocating a no strings attached fuck buddy kind of thing (excuse the swear, but I have no idea what else to call it other than “friends who occasionally see each other naked and do gay things to each other”) LOL. I’m sure this comes with the territory. It will be nice to have a weekend free where I don’t have to think about it…although I do hope to get a salacious text from him or something.
With that in mind I consider myself still on the market. Lauren just discussed with me a coworker that she has who she believes is gay and she seems to think we would be a good fit. I have stopped by at her work and she’s pointed him out to me. So last night I made an emergency stop at her place of employment with Lucy in the hopes of introducing myself to him. IT WORKED!!!! After some minor shopping, you wouldn’t believe what you home with from a store when you specifically go there to flirt with a guy, Lucy and I stepped into line. As we are standing there I ask him about his other job and he looks at me confused and I casually mention that Lauren who works with him has mentioned him a couple of times and that it was nice to put a face and a name together. I introduce myself and Lucy to him he shakes my hand. Nice firm grip…he is quiet spoken, taller than me, short almost buzzed reddish blond/brown hair, he has a beard…there is a certain dreamy quality about him. Something happened to work out in my favor, I couldn’t find an item in the store so someone had to go and get it for me…they left me at the checkout allowing me some quality time to flirt SCORE. Lucy and I get into an economic discussion while he checked someone out as I waited for my item. Afterward he finished the check out he ended up commenting on our conversation that we were having between us meaning he was listening!!! So my item comes and I check out, just before I leave I lean over and say to him “it was nice to meet you” and I think I said I hope to see him again. I think I’m not sure but besides that he responded with something like “I’ll see you again” or something like that. So it was a good gay flirting adventure. We’ll see what happens.
So that’s the mess known as my love life at the moment.
Also, in the political rant realm I would like to say
VOTE NO TO PROPOSITION 8!!
I’m over these people trying to stop gay marriage. If you vote for it you are simply voting against the “equal protection clause of the California Constitution.” Basically what people are saying is that every one is due equal protection except when it involves two men or women who love each other and want to be married. People are fucking hypocrites (and I’m not sorry about that swear).
For those of you who do not know what Proposition 8 is let me explain. When two men want to marry each other, in California, previously they would run into a little problem called Prop 22. Prop 22 defined, in California, marriage as being between a man and a woman. Just as a side note, at one point in time in California their marriage language looked like this “…defined marriage as: “a personal relation arising out of a civil context, to which consent of the parties making that contract is necessary.”” Sounds pretty gay friendly doesn’t it? Well eventually those people who can’t handle to men loving one another (and women loving women) managed to get Prop 22 passed thus gay marriage was done for. That was until May of 2008 when the California Supreme Court declared that Prop 22 violated the California Constitution. To the happy gay couples of CA this meant that they could marry, and marry they have. Now in a desperate legal turn individuals have produced Proposition 8. This is basically the same language as Prop 22 only if it wins in the voting booths in November, Proposition 8 will change the language of the California Constitution. This means the equal protection, guaranteed by the California Constitution, guarding will be done away with.
Literally the words protecting the right for men to men and women to marry women will be erased from the law. A RIGHT THAT WE DESEVER WILL BE TAKEN AWAY FROM US. I DON’T KNOW HOW CLEARLY I CAN STATE THIS. LET ME TRY AGAIN….LEGALLY PEOPLE WILL TAKE AWAY A RIGHT THAT WE WANT, DESERVE, AND CURRENTLY HAVE IN CALIFORNIA.
Now let me say this if you are gay and living in California and not registered to vote then shame on you. This is important for the gay community. I don’t care if you don’t believe in marriage or don’t want to get married. There are a significant amount of others that do want to get married and because you didn’t register to vote you are basically apathetic. Rights that we want are being taken away from us and you can’t even go register to vote is offensive. Those hypocrites that want to take away our rights depend on people like you with your apathy to help rewrite state Constitutions to their liking. It’s sickening. Also, if you are registered to vote and vote for Proposition 8 I think all your rights should be taken away from you…do you like talk of taking away your rights. I didn’t think so.
Finally, I would like to point some things out about the VP debates from last week. First, I love LOVE that Palin can tolerate me, lucky me (ahem dry sarcasm). Secondly, go figure they would spend only two questions on the whole gay marriage issue, once again we gays are second fiddle to the economy and foreign policies. Finally, I am a liberal Democrat and I would vote for Obama except Biden exemplified exactly the reason why I find it hard to vote for them. Biden stood in the national spot light and said he would protect gay rights (notice he said rights but never said marriage) but when asked if he believed in gay marriage he said personally no, the same with Obama. Now I know it is nice to finally have an Administration that will to some extent fight for gay rights, but publically Biden said he didn’t believe in gay marriage. I have to be passionate about my gay rights because there are many people who will not back them. How can I vote for someone that only goes halfway? He will protect gay rights but he doesn’t believe in gay marriage. Isn’t marriage a right I should have? It’s like me saying something like, women can vote but I personally don’t think they should vote or be in the political world.
I’ve voiced this to several of my friends who are upset over the fact that this issue is keeping me from voting for Obama (and may I say I would never vote for McCain). I’ve been told it’s the best I have right now. Well, why do I have to settle, am I not allowed to want more from my President and Vice President? It’s like being paid lip service. If Obama or Biden don’t believe in gay marriage personally how can I expect them to fight for it on a nation wide level if need be? It’s not an issue that can just be swept under the rug. How can I be sure that they would be passionate advocates as others are about gay rights and marriage? I want a politician who believes in what they say on a political and personal level and perhaps that’s more than I can ask from someone but I truly believe it is something that should be asked of our leaders.
Well that’s about it for now…I know it’s long but I had a lot to say. Have a great weekend. Let me know your thoughts about Prop 8 and the VP debate.
Here’s hoping all of you get lucky this weekend!!!!!!!
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Alright let me pick up where I have left off. As I mentioned I was torn between two guys Steve the meanie guy that flirts with me and the older sexual harassment guy…we’ll call him Craig. I also left off with my Alma Mater’s Homecoming looming. Homecoming was a spectacular blast. We had tons of people stay with me and Lauren at our place lots of booze, lots of fun etc. Friday night I had a slight development with Steve. We were both drunk at my Alma Mater’s favorite bar hangout and having a broken conversation. He did not go to my college but he came with several friends to hang out will all us alums. We end up leaving, he got a ride home with friends, me in a taxi with a few other friends and we start texting. I managed to get back into my bedroom and crash on my floor when I get a text from Steve “I want you in my mouth”….abuhhhhhhhh. I was flattered, excited, and somewhat confused by this exclamation. We had flirted but in the back of my mind I had not really thought anything would have come of Steve. I’m drunk and I’m pretty sure I send a text back that wasn’t sexual in nature but ponderus…my cell phone blinks with a response from Steve, “ I want to suck you off”…could my 11 months of strike outs with the boys finally have worn off? Have I just scored a homerun?…my cell phone blinks again. It’s Steve, “j/k”….what in the world I wonder, then another text “just kidding.” At this point, between the massive amount of booze circulating in my system and these weird text messages, I’m totally confused. We text for a few more minutes when he tells me he is texting his EX-BOYFRIEND…I pass out downtrodden.
The next day I receive a text from him apologizing for the perverted texts…I haven’t texted him in three days. Needless to say, the universe screwed me over again, not surprisingly. I’m sad but not surprised. For the moment Steve is out of the picture. I don’t time or patience to worry about a guy who is hung up on his ex when I took the time to flirt and make myself available to him. Available for dating and such…what kind of available are you thinking of?????
The rest of the weekend goes of without a stitch. It isn’t until Monday that things get interesting. So I am at work and Craig and I have been emailing each other. Mostly about the event I’m hosting but there are flirty nuances in the emails. So I give him my personal email. In one email I ask him what he is doing. He responds going to a movie, and asks if I like Woody Allen films (queue the Juno Quote “Woody Allen! I love Woody Allen.” That’s would be Juno’s friend Leah who is flirting with an older teacher…the situation is reminiscent to my own at the moment). I tell him I don’t mind them and that my evening was going to consist of going to a lecture about Civil Rights, MLK, and the political race with Obama. He then asks me to join him at the movies….hello Vicky Christina Barcelona good bye Civil Rights lecture. (I couldn’t help myself…you would do the same) So we meet at the theater. He had a couple of free passes so we go in and it is me and him and these two older people. Drat, I totally would have made out with him in the theater. The movie was awesome and we then go out for drinks…I’m thinking this is kinda like a date but kinda not. After two hours of drinking and talking and A LOT of touching, he asks if I would like a tour of his house…meager come on but I am totally down with it. We get back to his house and I do get a tour and then the real fun began.
I know I know you probably want all the fun and gay details…I’ll give you just a few. It was fun, after 11 months I know I still got it, it was fun, I still have a few scraps of dignity still intact, it was fun, no we didn’t go all the way, it was still fun, and I might be meeting up with him on Sunday….did I mention it was fun!
After our fun all I could think is of that moment in Under the Tuscan Sun where Diane Lane has sex for the first time after her divorce and she’s bouncing all over her room chanting “I still got it… (grabs chest)…I still got it…(laying on her back kicking her legs like an excited child…I…Still…Got….It.” I had the same type of reaction, it just wasn’t in my bedroom therefore it was a little reserved. Note the picture below
So I don’t know where this is going. I am not putting to much thought into it. He is older than me; perhaps we are friends that just like to fool around…I don’t know and I’m not going to try and label quite yet…I’m sure that won’t last long though…that’s my neurosis talking.
P.S. He gave me his cold……
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